Sexual Pleasure. Unforgettable Orgasm
MIREILLE, The Netherlands
“I WAS STANDING, AND ONE OF MY PARENTS SAID SOMETHING—AND SOMETHING ELECTRIC WENT THROUGH MY WHOLE BODY”
I think I had my first one as a child. I think it was an orgasm (sexual pleasure), but I’m not sure. I don’t know how old I was. I was standing, and one of my parents said something. And something electric went through my whole body. I was startled and perhaps even shocked. It didn’t feel like something to show or to share. “Oh mommy, mommy, what happened? Listen to what happened to me this afternoon.” No. It was a good feeling at that point, but I didn’t know what it was. Later on, I was thinking, “What was that?” I kept it in my head; it was somewhere in me still.
I think the first orgasm (sexual pleasure) I can really remember was with my first boyfriend. It was great, it was exciting—I think I’m going to laugh all the time while I’m telling about this; I’m not used to talking about these things. I think I was caught by surprise. I think we were naked, and we were kissing, and he wasn’t about to enter me yet, but close to it, and I think it came before he entered me. It’s strange that I don’t remember. When first asked about my first orgasm, the only thing that really came to my mind was that experience when I was a child.
But now I also remember this one, and I think my boyfriend noticed that it was an orgasm (sexual pleasure), but I’m not sure. It is such a long time ago—too long ago for me to really be able to capture that moment. But I know that I didn’t hide it. It’s something nice. It’s something that you can share. It’s not something secret. My strongest orgasm was by myself. It helps me to say “yes” while doing it—I encourage myself. Normally, when I see it in a movie, or whatever, then I think they are exaggerating. Why are they screaming? But it does help if you shout it out and let it come. And say “yes.” That’s what I would want to say if I wanted to help people, so to speak.
When I tried it out for the first time, there was nobody able to hear me. I didn’t say it very loud. I said it, I didn’t shout it. I’m not the kind to shout it out, as some people are. I’m a quiet embracer. But that also helps. It made me feel great. It’s a process. It’s as if I’m coaching and allowing myself to be who I am as a woman. It helps me to become more independent. I don’t think I’ve had my strongest orgasm (sexual pleasure) yet. I’m working toward it. I do have fantasies when I create an orgasm. They are with other people, of course. Nice, large, brown men.
But I can also create an orgasm without fantasies. I can enjoy the body sensation without using my mind to extra-stimulate. My body just enjoys itself, without any image. I think with an image it is better, but I am not sure. I’m still figuring it out. I haven’t thought about the role of orgasm in the future yet. One hears or reads quite often that women aren’t satisfied. And perhaps by putting it out into the open, taking it into account more and taking it seriously as something to be communicated, it will be easier to get it with another person, whether a woman or a man. Orgasm (sexual pleasure) is not only for men; it is also for women. It is essential that they are equally having pleasure.
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